So it should be clear that my problem isn't with the old testament; I don't like Jesus and his philosophy for weaks either. I'd never turn the other cheek and a man who does that is not a man. But that's just an example, I hate his complete morality, it is nihilistic for me.

What Jesus said or might have said can be interpreted in various ways. Moreover, his philosophy should be seen as a highly idealist guideline, not as something to follow word by word (which no one in these times would be able to do).

I think you didn't get me right; the whole later life of Jesus as described in the New Testament is a shit for me. You can interpret the whole book in many ways but not in that way which I could accept. And if that was possible, I would still choose paganism because it's way more beautiful and not alien. Christianity doesn't make anything better for me, only worse. I'm not a "let everyone be friends" hippie, I reject the modern world and I'm living as naturally as possible for a student. If you read on The Genealogy of Morality you should understand that I don't see anything positive in Slavemorality, shouldn't you?

"Jesus is the unethical son of a jewish whore", a SS-motto. of course I'm talking about "german" SS. The Handschar-Division wasn't pagan, too.

Never heard about that motto.

Have seen it in a "Nazis-were-so-brutal" documentary. The man who told that was a former german SS-soldier.

Short note aside, your usage of the word "pagan" is debatable – since it's just the Christian term to describe all non-Christians. So in a way, Handzhar actually was pagan ;D